But surprisingly, and by God's grace, I am still loving the ride. This last year has been such an incredible experience of living for more. I think it is safe to say that I have been *nearly* cured of my type A personality. Having so many circumstances outside of my control and daily needing to throw myself into the hands of the Lord has taught me to release control.
I love reflecting back on my 30th birthday a year ago. My friend Emily and I welcomed the new decade by throwing ourselves off a 75 story building. For me, it really was a prophetic act of stepping out in faith. I have seen this last year that there comes a point where you just have to jump.
A year ago I had so much anxiety about taking our kids to Africa, and now I have none
A year ago I was worried about financial provision, and God has taken care of all our needs
A year ago I was anxious about our health and safety, and we are alive and well
Looking ahead to this next year I know there will be a temptation to settle back into being comfortable. Although our circumstances may not force the same reliance on God, I want to grow in him more and step out when he asks me to. After all, he is so faithful.