Reflections from a 31 Year Old

Yesterday was my birthday and we celebrated in the Windy City which was lots of fun. My brother let us use his Marriott points for a couple nights (thank you Erik) and I experienced what the big deal is about Chicago pizza. Let me tell you, it's a big deal. Yum.

 I feel like I've done ten years worth of living in this last year (the bags under my eyes would agree). A lot of people have been asking me, "aren't you tired of moving around so much?"  The answer is yes and no. I had anticipated that by this point in our journey I'd be ready for some routine and stability. And I am.  Waking up in the same bed (my own bed) day after day sounds dreamy. I fantasize about exotic things like having my clothes on hangers, checking my mailbox, and making kefir smoothies in my bathrobe.

But surprisingly, and by God's grace, I am still loving the ride. This last year has been such an incredible experience of living for more. I think it is safe to say that I have been *nearly* cured of my type A personality.  Having so many circumstances outside of my control and daily needing to throw myself into the hands of the Lord has taught me to release control.

I love reflecting back on my 30th birthday a year ago.  My friend Emily and I welcomed the new decade by throwing ourselves off a  75 story building. For me, it really was a prophetic act of stepping out in faith.  I have seen this last year that there comes a point where you just have to jump.

When the Isrealites crossed the Jordan River, they had to step in the water before it parted. Likewise, God has taught me a lot about living in faith, fear.
                A year ago I had so much anxiety about taking our kids to Africa, and now I have none

A year ago I was worried about financial provision, and God has taken care of all our needs

 A year ago I was anxious about our health and safety, and we are alive and well

Looking ahead to this next year I know there will be a temptation to settle back into being comfortable. Although our circumstances may not force the same reliance on God, I want to grow in him more and step out when he asks me to.  After all, he is so faithful.