Thursday, May 10, 2012

Reflections from a 31 Year Old

Yesterday was my birthday and we celebrated in the Windy City which was lots of fun. My brother let us use his Marriott points for a couple nights (thank you Erik) and I experienced what the big deal is about Chicago pizza. Let me tell you, it's a big deal. Yum.
 I feel like I've done ten years worth of living in this last year (the bags under my eyes would agree). A lot of people have been asking me, "aren't you tired of moving around so much?"  The answer is yes and no. I had anticipated that by this point in our journey I'd be ready for some routine and stability. And I am.  Waking up in the same bed (my own bed) day after day sounds dreamy. I fantasize about exotic things like having my clothes on hangers, checking my mailbox, and making kefir smoothies in my bathrobe.

But surprisingly, and by God's grace, I am still loving the ride. This last year has been such an incredible experience of living for more. I think it is safe to say that I have been *nearly* cured of my type A personality.  Having so many circumstances outside of my control and daily needing to throw myself into the hands of the Lord has taught me to release control.

I love reflecting back on my 30th birthday a year ago.  My friend Emily and I welcomed the new decade by throwing ourselves off a  75 story building. For me, it really was a prophetic act of stepping out in faith.  I have seen this last year that there comes a point where you just have to jump.
When the Isrealites crossed the Jordan River, they had to step in the water before it parted. Likewise, God has taught me a lot about living in faith, fear.
                A year ago I had so much anxiety about taking our kids to Africa, and now I have none
A year ago I was worried about financial provision, and God has taken care of all our needs
 A year ago I was anxious about our health and safety, and we are alive and well

Looking ahead to this next year I know there will be a temptation to settle back into being comfortable. Although our circumstances may not force the same reliance on God, I want to grow in him more and step out when he asks me to.  After all, he is so faithful.

4 comments:

  1. Happy birthday! I was born just outside of Chicago and have lots of family there so I know all about Chicago pizza! There is nothing else like it. -Rhiannon

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  3. Christine, Thank you for sharing your heart and being real! I am so excited about the work Father God has been doing in you this past year. Like you said He is faithful, not only to provide for our needs and our dreams but also faithful in purifying and sanctifying us more like Him! You continually are becoming more beautiful in Him. Love you sister:) May you continue to enjoy the ride...literally!!

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